Moth Killer

I just killed a moth, no actually two. I was in my room, trying to catch a couple who'd stumbled across into the light source that was my room. We have had a bit of a moth invasion lately! I've been doing the 'right' thing, once in awhile catching them and letting them out in the garden...that has always been my policy, but there is just so many of them, i'm getting lazy.

Tonight was different though, I kept trying to catch this moth, and unlike most this one was putting up a bit of a fight, in a fit of dsitress it kept flapping all over the place. I would get so close, and then lose it again, I was a bit obsessed at this point...i'm gonna catch you and set you free if it takes all night. I however lost my patience too soon, next thing you know I start trying to swat it down with a t-shirt. I went crazy if...I can't save him, he was going to die. He'd pissed me off, I was trying to break his wings...i succeeded, after a few swots my t-shirt clipped a wing and he went bang onto a wall...

I didnt stop there, I started vacuuming my room, and saw another one, and just pointed the hose right at it...shooosh!!! he was in a dark and dusty place now. Ha! hear me roar!

I wonder what made me go from wanting to help a poor lost creature, to wanting to kill it and anything else that resembled it. Maybe my help comes at a price? Do as you're told or expect consquences. So it begs the question, can I help someone when they test my patience, will I just destroy them because they don't want to be helped. Maybe I should've just walked away!