Monday, October 24, 2005

soon to be inked

I have less than 2 weeks to go before my thesis is due, 1 week before i turn 22. and exactly 2 weeks before i get inked for the first time.

thesis...huh, its not the end of the world, and turning 22...don't worry i'm still acting 17. lets talk about the last. Im getting a tattoo, i could not be more excited. I have been waiting for this for awhile. it just feels like the right time. I'm finishing uni, I am ever more close to breaking free from my parents. I have broken free from whatever insecurities, hang ups i held to date. I am riding on of those highs where you a grateful for everyday. times when you look forward to the future.

so what's the tattoo about, you will have to wait and see. so far my parents, bro, george and dave have seen it. stev of course saw it as well...and chucked a hissy fit, i don't think he likes the idea of his lil boy growing up. It's not a pretty little tattoo designed so i can roll up my sleeve and join the fashion crew. Its more personal to me, its an image that means something. ask me sometime and i'll tell you.

racist

I'm a huge fan of 24 (the tv series), but for the first time i was compelled to break from the spell and watch an episode of cold case on ch9. repetitve american dribble u say...yes maybe, but this case truely did move me.

It was set in the times when the black american struggle was really taking off. a story about a young intelligent black man who befriended a white lady, and paid the price. I have to say me and my brother sitting there watching, our blood was boling. i was so quick to spit at the typical white american who let this all happen. How can we take orders from a country which has hurt its own citizens so much. how did the world let these people destroy the lives of so many, why weren't they brought down like the nazi government. maybe it was too hard, maybe we were too busy imposing the white australia policy.

But during all this angst and hatred, i thought to myself, racism is not a white against black, white against asian problem. Its asians against asians, indians against pakistanis, blacks against browns. i am a racist, for those few minutes after watching the show, i was so full of hate, i wanted to make these people pay. but then a strand of maturity in my mind stopped me, gave me a rope to grab onto. I would only ever perpetuate all that happened over time. It all comes down to taking the difficult road, its so easy to judge and hate, to class everyone in groups. The difficult road is taking each person as they are, not my their skin colour, gender, sexuality...etc, but as one great man said, by the 'content of their character'.

don't be a racist, don't be a sexist, don't a homophobic...just open your eyes and make the best of this amzing world we live in.

Friday, October 07, 2005

what is blog?

this idea of a blog is a bit difficult to grasp, im sure you've all heard it before, so why read it? why should i write down my private thoughts for the world to read...why would i want to divulge information to a stranger, to a friend, with no control as to when and how they view it...never mind

today

today...hmm interesting day, got lots of uni work done...helped a friend with a uni assignment and got a free dinner for it :-) had a beer with dave, aparently im mr. popular...haha.

2 exciting things happened

one i met my english teacher for a coffee...amazing woman, a sort of vibrancy and charisma that you cant learn from a text book. had a good conversation, its funny seeing her as a friend now, after seeing her as a teacher for so long.

two, had a really good conversation with my ex boy friend, now best friend...its funny when things fall apart, and you think thats the end of that only to realise that the end isn't the end. i think if you can sustain a friendship with an ex, thats showing true character, and commitment. i mean if you truely love someone, it shouldn't matter if you are sleeping with them or not, right? or even who they are sleeping with?...maybe there are different types of love, rather than varying levels of one love (as i used to think). you can love someone as a partner, and love someone as a friend, and love someone as a person, a truely altrustic act? nway one thing is for sure, friends r alot easier to deal with, and sure last longer.

back for good

ha, back for another round, after a week it seems (i lost my username)...only 4 weeks, or less left before i finish uni for good...wow, it is a bit of a milestone, after having come so far, now to be thrust onto the 'real' world...